June 26 Surrendering self-will Our fears are lessened and faith begins to grow as we learn the true meaning of surrender.  We are no longer fighting fear, anger, guilt, self-pity, or depression. Basic Text, p. 27 = Surrender is the beginning of a new way of life.  When driven primarily by self-will, we constantly wondered whether wed covered all the bases, whether wed manipulated that person in just the right way to achieve our ends, whether wed missed a critical detail in our efforts to control and manage the world.  We either felt afraid, fearing our schemes would fail; angry or self-pitying when they fell through; or guilty when we pulled them off.  It was hard, living on self-will, but we didnt know any other way. Not that surrender is always easy.  On the contrary, surrender can be difficult, especially in the beginning.  Still, its easier to trust God, a Power capable of managing our lives, than to trust only ourselves, whose lives are unmanageable.  And the more we surrender, the easier it gets. When we turn our will and our lives over to the care of our Higher Power, all we have to do is our part, as responsibly and conscientiously as we can.  Then we can leave the results up to our Higher Power.  By surrendering, acting on faith, and living our lives according to the simple spiritual principles of this program, we can stop worrying and start living. = Just for today:  I will surrender self-will.  I will seek knowledge of Gods will for me and the power to carry it out.  I will leave the results in my Higher Powers hands.

✌️🫶Thought for Today What worries you, masters you.  ~John Locke Master your FEAR, and the world is yours.   (thanks Stu K.) Life is such a precious thing    You are a miracle with every smile you bring    yes the sun will rise and set, that is a blessing from above    we all walk with hour glasses unsure of when we’ll go—so we love    yes love is life and life is full of love life      We make our own realities by being true to thine own self . so this is the way we strive to live   Life is such a precious thing . It is all in your perspective.   Michelle B.

Got back from Arizona, plane was delayed, phone was stolen and other reasons to get upset, thanks to the principles I learned at Stepworks I stayed calm, made the flight and amazingly phone was returned to me by a user!!? Stayed calm, and now I can proudly look back and see how silly all the anxiety was!!! GOD GOT THIS Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

I let yall down guys. Limw i tried to stay clean from meth and then i suffered from pseudocyesis and guess what i binged so hard i overdosed. Granted mild overdose but still. Im so horrible

Finally completed my 30 days at London! Want to thank all the staff. You all are truly amazing people! Made my experience so much easier! Read to hit those meetings!

The biggest challenge for me, is BOREDOM. up until this point, well this time working on the steps and staying sober. I am not acting on the craving. Instead I’m fighting through. I mean I’m really pushing myself to get through the day and by no means will I pick up. I’m 36 years old & I’ve had to start over with nothing soo many times. I would lose everything than get on track and fix and accumulate more than last time while gaining momentum but for no longer than 6 months each time, than I would start slowly getting back into the chaos of full blown addiction. Because I would never fully commit or accept the fact that I need the fellowship and support that the meetings bring to me. This time is different than any other because this time I Surrendered to the process and now I spend my free time reading literature and journaling. Praying to give thanks for the chance to get another day and even though I’m living a selfish life right now. I still understand that others need the help as much as I do and I’m willing to help anyone I come across who needs it.

FUCK MY FEELS..today I wake up at 3:30Am tried walked out the door at home about 5am and get to Micky.D to get food for my people at work so then I get to work then my X boss said I don’t need you right now I’m full so I said okay.then give him my number if he needs me then I’m walking back to Micky. D because they don’t give me my ba ba ba ba!!!. And I was not loving it then got that taking care of I went to the Food stamp office to get my card cared for so then through all that. I prayed for 7 churches then 27 minute later 7 dogs came running up and bit me .then I have a cops pull up and then called a I am ambulance to come get me and go to the emergency hospital and get out call for a ride nobody hope me but Matt .p so 95% was bad and 5% was good so I can say I still have hope and I love you you’ll!!!!. And the rest is to my sponsor…

Still clean but somehow quickly I’m not seeing any hope right now. Sitting in my garage all alone. Debating with the devil live or die. Anyone else ever have these emotional low points of hopelessness and contemplating if life is worth living knowing your the cause of all the pain and anger and disappointment?

Today marks 9 years!!! Let go and let God! You CAN do it with his help!!

In 2 days count them 2 it will be 3 years clean

Spending time with grand daughters……we’re putting in an in-ground pool hoping to be finished in a couple of weeks. One day at a time knowing God has His plans

I just discovered a 247 meeting of recovery online. It's great meeting every hour on the hour on zoom.hit me up if you want the website