active 2 years, 10 months ago
I am tired burnt out lonely depressed miserable and lost and I have no support I haven't reached out to my people like I should of. I am trying to sponsor myself. I feel like I have nobody gave everything away cause my disease. I am grateful to my 5 &7 yr old in the bed with me
It sucks that I have to return them back to their mom later on after being away from them and having to give em back! It's a double edge sword and they are what gives me hope and meaning, but at the same time I still feel like I'm worthless and a piece of shit for what I caused in their life. Love is all I can give them and I am blessed to have them right now. I apologize to not reaching out to a lot of step work brothers I was there with. I r had a lot of phone troubles not to mention having my isolation pity party. I hate life my self and tired of living. I ain't put no junk in me or liquid courage downy neck but I feel like checking out and maybe my kids would be better off with out me down the road! My giving a damn has bout run out
I felt love and I felt like a was a part of something there and I never had that. But I'm going to bed and wish all the step work bro's the best of life. Miss you guys and stay safe