active 3 years, 8 months ago
Hey everyone...I remember something that was said to me at stepworks. I was ask my third time coming back what happened...what caused me to relapsed? The answer was just like everyone else who had to come back, no meetings, no sponsor, and no stepwork...and that was the truth ...and also not praying and staying spiritualy fit for life and to stay sober....I find myself in the same circle of madness again today...I have relapsed several times since I got out on July 4...I'm so ashamed and honestly can't believe I'm telling this to everyone. I'm broke and on verge of loosing everything once again. I'm in darkness inside and can't shake it off...I'm in pain inside my soul cause I can't pray to ask for help cause I'm so torn and just beat inside. All I want to do is go to a sober living in London or Corbin to be around my brothers who I have gotten to know and love. I have realized that is were I should have went as soon as I left treatment. Now I'm broke and trying to find a break to make some money to make that happen. I'm going to hit my knees in a few and ask GOD for forgiveness and turn my will over to him completely...and surrender for real. I can't do this anymore. I need my real family near me every day...my recovery family. I'm going to do whatever to make it happen...I need to swallow my pride and just do what it takes to be around recovery every day. Cause what I'm doing now is not working and I'm ready to sacrifice everything to get back down there were I feel like I have people who really care. Love and peace
"Recovery is a process of discovery. We learn about ourselves, and we learn how to cope with the world around us. When we are sincere in our desire to allow our higher power to care for us, we begin to gain a sense of serenity. We notice a gradual change in our thinking. Our attitudes and ideas become more positive. Our world is no longer distorted by self-pity, denial, and resentment. We are beginning to replace those old attitudes with honesty, faith and responsibility; as a result, we begin to see our world in a better light. Our lives are guided by our emerging integrity. Even though we make mistakes, we become more willing to take responsibility for our actions. We learn that we don't have to be perfect to live a spiritual life. When we work step three with an open mind and heart, we find the results are far beyond our expectations. " It Works How and Why pg24
Hey everyone...I remember something that was said to me at stepworks. I was ask my third time coming back what happened...what caused me to relapsed? The answer was just like everyone else who had to come back, no meetings, no sponsor, and no stepwork...and that was the truth ...and also not praying and staying spiritualy fit for life and to stay sober....I find myself in the same circle of madness again today...I have relapsed several times since I got out on July 4...I'm so ashamed and honestly can't believe I'm telling this to everyone. I'm broke and on verge of loosing everything once again. I'm in darkness inside and can't shake it off...I'm in pain inside my soul cause I can't pray to ask for help cause I'm so torn and just beat inside. All I want to do is go to a sober living in London or Corbin to be around my brothers who I have gotten to know and love. I have realized that is were I should have went as soon as I left treatment. Now I'm broke and trying to find a break to make some money to make that happen. I'm going to hit my knees in a few and ask GOD for forgiveness and turn my will over to him completely...and surrender for real. I can't do this anymore. I need my real family near me every day...my recovery family. I'm going to do whatever to make it happen...I need to swallow my pride and just do what it takes to be around recovery every day. Cause what I'm doing now is not working and I'm ready to sacrifice everything to get back down there were I feel like I have people who really care. Love and peace
@scottr Good to hear Scott keep doing what ur doing we can beat this just remember it’s a simple program love u
I’m greatfull for another day my first night in sober living was good was nervous about sleeping well but slept like a champ I’m greatful to be here and thank god for all the blessings and if no one has said they love you this morning well I love you...stay focused,humble and god bless
