I never thought I would see this so greatful to stepworks

Forever undeserving, forever humbled, forever grateful, and forever blessed!

When my brain and my heart are at constant battle, it’s usually my liver that takes the grunt of it. Thank God for another day and a solution to get this mess out of my head!

Hey everyone...I remember something that was said to me at stepworks. I was ask my third time coming back what happened...what caused me to relapsed? The answer was just like everyone else who had to come back, no meetings, no sponsor, and no stepwork...and that was the truth ...and also not praying and staying spiritualy fit for life and to stay sober....I find myself in the same circle of madness again today...I have relapsed several times since I got out on July 4...I'm so ashamed and honestly can't believe I'm telling this to everyone. I'm broke and on verge of loosing everything once again. I'm in darkness inside and can't shake it off...I'm in pain inside my soul cause I can't pray to ask for help cause I'm so torn and just beat inside. All I want to do is go to a sober living in London or Corbin to be around my brothers who I have gotten to know and love. I have realized that is were I should have went as soon as I left treatment. Now I'm broke and trying to find a break to make some money to make that happen. I'm going to hit my knees in a few and ask GOD for forgiveness and turn my will over to him completely...and surrender for real. I can't do this anymore. I need my real family near me every day...my recovery family. I'm going to do whatever to make it happen...I need to swallow my pride and just do what it takes to be around recovery every day. Cause what I'm doing now is not working and I'm ready to sacrifice everything to get back down there were I feel like I have people who really care. Love and peace