Thank you for sharing and reaching out my friend. I don’t know your personal story but, my experience has been, I harmed people emotionally from years of active addiction and all the chaos that comes with it. That being said, it was made clear to me early on that, I had to want recovery for myself; that I had to admit complete defeat before I could change. My loved ones were great motivation but, people had every right to be skeptical of me early on. I had to be willing to accept that and push on regardless because I wanted freedom. As a result I was able to go through a process of admitting my wrongs and making amends through a change in my behaviors. Recovery takes humility and this mess is not cleaned up overnight.. That being said, if you keep doing the right thing you may learn that time and consistency silences all critics.. We just have to let go of expectations. Hang in there my friend you are not alone!