Wow! 8 years! That’s so cool! I just celebrated 8 months!

Counselr in Training, I am so sorry about the loss of your father. You are not alone in the opinion that losing a parent is hard. They are so close to us and have loved us all of our lives. But let me tell you a few things that might make you feel better, ok? Your father is ACTUALLY living . Yes, that’s right. You and I are on Earth getting assessments and directions from God to see if we will actually be able to live or not. When He Created each and every one of us, God Gave is the choice to either be good or evil. And God bases how you react to the assessments and directions that He Gives to you on Earth, whether you will live or not.?Your father passed all of his assessments and directions, so he is living in God’s unimaginably beautiful universe called Heaven. I hope that you were able to understand that and that made you feel better. About you taking the pills: what is in the past is in the past. I know that is easier said than done, but you are beating yourself up over that memory. You have to set yourself free from your past in order to handle the present. You took the pills in order to cope with the loss of your father. But you are still letting that flashback and memory beat you up now, and that’s not ok. You need to accept both things that have happened. The loss of your father and the fact that you chose to take the pills to cope with his loss. True acceptance of your total addiction(s) is the first part of recovery and you cannot and will NOT recover until you do. True acceptance does NOT make you any less of a person. The fact that you had the addiction does NOT make you ANY less of a person. God will NOT Withold His Love for you, He is Not That Type of God, He Will actually Be There for you more. I think that you need to see a 1:1 therapist and/or other mental health professional as well as doing this to truly accept your addiction(s), the loss of your father, and the fact that you took the pills to cope. They are actual, and by that, I mean in-person, certified, and trained to help you with these three things. I hope that you take me up on that advice and that you feel better. I WILL be here for you all week, checking in on you.

Hello Amanda, Ty so Much for your Great Advice, But I was writing to tell you I have a Hard time Around this Time Because I miss Him I’ve Came to The Conclusion That I can’t Take back Yesterday& I actually Have Accepted this I love that I have And my Song to Both my Parents that I lost my Mother on Dec 23rd 2016 5 yrs After my Dad, And Sept 2016 I excepted God as my Savior,& Me& My Husband,& Son Did& Dec 11th before my Mother passed She seen us all get Baptised& She looked at me& Said well all my wishes have came true you kids are clean&; going to heaven with me when y’all get there me& your dad will be there with Jesus waiting on you all And she passed Dec 23rd& her funeral was Day After Christmas& Day before my Birthday..That was hard because when I lost her I was sober& I felt everything& I was broken, But God Bonded me back together I do Actually See a Therapist for My Rape that was 7 hours held at gun point when I was 19..But that’s a whole long story..Im doing that band Going to school for Substance Abuse Counselor ill be done in Nov I can’t wait…But I take very great Pride in my Career This is my passion to give back to Society…Ty for your Kind& Beautiful words They did mean alot to me…There Should be Many more like you…Huggs& 💕💕🙏🙏🙌🙌

Congrats on your sobriety