The biggest challenge for me, is BOREDOM. up until this point, well this time working on the steps and staying sober. I am not acting on the craving. Instead I’m fighting through. I mean I’m really pushing myself to get through the day and by no means will I pick up. I’m 36 years old & I’ve had to start over with nothing soo many times. I would lose everything than get on track and fix and accumulate more than last time while gaining momentum but for no longer than 6 months each time, than I would start slowly getting back into the chaos of full blown addiction. Because I would never fully commit or accept the fact that I need the fellowship and support that the meetings bring to me. This time is different than any other because this time I Surrendered to the process and now I spend my free time reading literature and journaling. Praying to give thanks for the chance to get another day and even though I’m living a selfish life right now. I still understand that others need the help as much as I do and I’m willing to help anyone I come across who needs it.