I’m new to this app and back from a ugly relapse that lasted longer then I thought. Crazy how I remember thinking “im just going to do it this once” then here I am 4 years later with so much trauma I hate to admit. I have One month 2 weeks and one day clean, im no longer able to do this by myself, I need new people in my life and im sticking myself in where ever I can, with people who has been where I have been. I love the the life I live today and I am blessed to even be alive today. A month and a half ago I was plotting on how I would kill myself because I couldn’t keep going the way I was… Thank God for the rooms of NA and AA. I am Terra a recovering addict and I have a month and a half clean.