Hello, I only decided to start my journey yesterday. I got pretty wasted Wednesday night & felt like a POS all of Thursday. I had online conversations with people I love & sounded ridiculous & sometimes didn’t even make sense. I was so embarrassed, I couldn’t read most of them & turned off my account.

After having a conversation with my husband about my health & he sheepishly saying, “Baby, I know one thing that you can quit & you’d feel much better” I decided to take the plunge. I’ve been thinking of doing it, I just didn’t know how to bring it up to him & my friends. He’s not much of a drinker, but my best friends are.

Last night I lied to my best friend. I ignored her call & then told her I was going to bed. She’s my trigger. I learned that on Wednesday. I was perfectly fine having a quiet night, then at 10pm, she calls & says, “Have a drink with me”. We live in different states so our dates are via phone. We drank & talked till we were beyond drunk. She was already drunk when she called so I stayed up after we hung up.

I’m ready for this change & to lose the people I’m going to lose in this process.

Sorry for the long post.