24 Hours A Day May 6 AA Thought for the Day I’ve noticed that the ones who do the most for AA are not in the habit of boasting about it. The danger of building myself up too much is that, if I do, I’m in danger of having a fall. That pattern of thought goes with drinking. If one side of a boat gets too far up out of the water, it’s liable to tip over. Building myself up and drinking go together. One leads to the other. So if I’m going to stay sober, I’ve got to keep small. Have I got the right perspective on myself? Meditation for the Day The way sometimes seems long and weary. So many people today are weary. The weariness of others must often be shared by me. The weary and the heavy-laden, when they come to me, should be helped to find the rest that I have found. There is only one sure cure for world-weariness and that is turning to spiritual things. In order to help bring about the turning of the weary world to God, I must dare to suffer, dare to conquer selfishness in myself, and dare to be filled with spiritual peace in the face of all the weariness of the world. Prayer for the Day I pray that I may be a help to discouraged people. I pray that I may have the courage to help bring about what the weary world needs but does not know how to get.

I once heard an old timer say, "It's great to have many years sober, but recovery is really about quality, not quantity." This really made me stop and think about what constitutes quality recovery. When we see someone who has the kind of recovery we want, what are the aspects of how that person lives life that makes their recovery attractive to us? I would love to hear what the rest of you think.

Finally enjoying the things I've took for granted over the years. And trying to enjoy the little things in life.

Merry Christmas fam.

Little over 2 mo ths clean living life to the fullest,never been this happy with life ever!!..

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Hope everyone has a great week!

The highest activity a human being can attain is learning for understanding, because to understand is to be free. – Barauch Spinoza

   January 24 From isolation to connection Our disease isolated us...  Hostile, resentful, self-centered, and self-seeking, we cut ourselves off from the outside world. Basic Text, p. 4 = Addiction is an isolating disease, closing us off from society, family, and self.  We hid.  We lied.  We scorned the lives we saw others living, surely beyond our grasp.  Worst of all, we told ourselves there was nothing wrong with us, even though we knew we were desperately ill.  Our connection with the world, and with reality itself, was severed.  Our lives lost meaning, and we withdrew further and further from reality. The NA program is designed especially for people like us.  It helps reconnect us to the life we were meant to live, drawing us out of our isolation.  We stop lying to ourselves about our condition; we admit our powerlessness and the unmanageability of our lives.  We develop faith that our lives can improve, that recovery is possible, and that happiness is not permanently beyond our grasp.  We get honest; we stop hiding; we show up and tell the truth, no matter what.  And as we do, we establish the ties that connect our individual lives to the larger life around us. We addicts need not live lives of isolation.  The Twelve Steps can restore our connection to life and livingif we work them. = Just for today:  I am a part of the life around me.  I will practice my program to strengthen my connection to my world. Copyright 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Completed my first week of work at the Toyota dealership which I never would have gotten this position at this company without sobriety or knowing people in recovery. It went well and I actually like being here. Life is good. How is everyone?

Lookout folks this old boy's got 17 months today. You happen to been with me when I went through treatment you would have think that was not possible just like I did but I promise you if you do what they say go to a meeting everyday for about 90 days find you a home group at a sponsor and get your head together your life will start changing an amazing ways this old boy has a job possibility with my former employer that fired me before I went to treatment now that's cool God stuff Richard you think. I'm starting to love life again I'm starting to realize I don't have to be in control it's not my job. I was told after a meeting awhile back it was time for me to take God's clothes off they're too big for me so I was told to go home get on my knees and tell God that he could have his clothes back I'm going to wear mine now and that's how it's going to be. You know that sounds silly but guess what it's working I'm realizing things about me that I never thought possible you know life is good now guys hang in there. 17 months just unbelievable

I have to show some gratitude today to Stepworks of London, Stepworks of Nicholasville, my wife, kids,sister, brother in law and the company that is giving me a chance. 75 days ago I was lost in the madness of my addiction I had almost destroyed anyone or anything that I loved or loved me and after 25+ years of addiction and trafficking I only saw the same thing for what short life I had left. I never thought of my future or the future of my family. In my addiction I only went a day at a time and fuck the rest. Through all of that I damn near destroyed my marriage dcbs stepped in and took my kids from the home and I had no choice but to call my sister and brother-in-law who I had pretty much cut ties with because they didn't buy or sell drugs. I begged them to come get my 3 son's or they were going to Foster care without skipping a beat they were on their way to get my boys and bring them to there home of 4. After spending a couple days in jail my first thought was to go back home and smoke/shoot as much meth as I could hustle up after 3 or 4 days here my sister and brother-in-law came. My brother-in-law told me I was coming with them one way or another I thought of everything to try to not go. But I did and my wife and I checked into 2 different Stepworks which no doubt saved or lives. Today after doing the right things for a few months and joining the program we're both working paying taxes and about to move to the nicest place we've ever lived. I've started a job in a company that beliefs in second chances and after my background check everything is in the open and they even broke policy with the go ahead from the president from the the Japan plant. I feel blessed to have stumbled into not just a job but a career. They also do a lot of giving back to the community which is also good for my recovery

So, I've been clean since January because I did have 2 relapses but the last one damn near could have killed me! I went into a horrible seizure and fell out the shower and I landed on my mouth, hence losing 5 teeth which did major damage on my self esteem. I get ANGRY when the thought of my past usage comes into my mind because I don't want to use and I don't have any desire to use. Let me enlighten you about something that happened at my work a couple weeks ago and I was livid. I'm now a cna and I love my job! Well, I have a lot of hyper energy and I love to make my residents happy and most of them love me! Well, I work with someone who is in the NA program like myself, from the Lexington area okay. I had a nurse approach me and ask me what I was on and she doesn't know me from Adam and Eve. I told her I wasn't on anything and she said she knew that I used to do drugs, and I asked her how she knew that, but she refused to tell me how, but I have a pretty good guess how, the girl from Lexington. She didn't believe me at all, and I didn't appreciate her accusatory comments, because I KNOW THAT I AM CLEAN, so the only thing I could say was I'll take a fucking drug test right now. I ended up not having to because a nurse that had left to go home, which is also a recovering addict came back to work and talked to me and she could tell that I wasn't high. So now, I went to my neurologist on Tuesday, and they know now about my past drug use, they sent me to the lab to do a urine drug screen and I can't wait to get a copy of the results because I'm going to take it to my work and shove it in the nurse's face who had no business accusing me like she did and say now tell me that I'm high! I've been doing really good and I'm only going to get better from here. Thanks y'all!

Hey everyone...I remember something that was said to me at stepworks. I was ask my third time coming back what happened...what caused me to relapsed? The answer was just like everyone else who had to come back, no meetings, no sponsor, and no stepwork...and that was the truth ...and also not praying and staying spiritualy fit for life and to stay sober....I find myself in the same circle of madness again today...I have relapsed several times since I got out on July 4...I'm so ashamed and honestly can't believe I'm telling this to everyone. I'm broke and on verge of loosing everything once again. I'm in darkness inside and can't shake it off...I'm in pain inside my soul cause I can't pray to ask for help cause I'm so torn and just beat inside. All I want to do is go to a sober living in London or Corbin to be around my brothers who I have gotten to know and love. I have realized that is were I should have went as soon as I left treatment. Now I'm broke and trying to find a break to make some money to make that happen. I'm going to hit my knees in a few and ask GOD for forgiveness and turn my will over to him completely...and surrender for real. I can't do this anymore. I need my real family near me every day...my recovery family. I'm going to do whatever to make it happen...I need to swallow my pride and just do what it takes to be around recovery every day. Cause what I'm doing now is not working and I'm ready to sacrifice everything to get back down there were I feel like I have people who really care. Love and peace

So as everybody knows I haven’t been on here in a while. So let me start out by saying I apologize to all I have to be honest here I backslid down this slippery slope of addiction finding myself doing the same old things that I use to quit going to meetings quit calling a sponsor so I’m back in full swing of my recovery stepworks of London sorry I haven’t been in contact once I quit doing all the things I was taught to do there I went on my path of destruction. I’ve caught it before it goes any farther I don’t wanna live a life full of nothing but drugs or alcohol you’ll be hearing more from me again I had to open up and be honest I had to tel someone so why not the recording me family I’m gonna grab the bull by the horns again only hoping to succeed in my recovery God is good and great but where relapse starts is your thoughts decisions and actions that will lead you to a sober life or the addicted life I thought I had it smoked when you graduate a treatment facility remember this your going back to the real world where everything is it takes you also it’s never a graduation but a continuation I’ll speak more at a latter time good night to all prayers please.

One Day Clean!!!!

Posted a update.

Thought Some people find it hard to believe in a Power greater than themselves. But not to believe in such a Power forces us to atheism. It has been said that atheism is blind faith in the strange proposition that this universe originated in a cipher and aimlessly rushes nowhere. That's practically impossible to believe. I think we all can agree that alcohol is a power greater than ourselves. It certainly was in my case. I was helpless before the power of alcohol. Do I remember the things that happened to me because of the power of alcohol? Meditation The spiritual and moral will eventually overcome the material and unmoral. That is the purpose and destiny of the human race. Gradually the spiritual is overcoming the material in our minds. Gradually the moral is overcoming the unmoral. Faith, fellowship, and service are cures for most of the ills of the world. There is nothing in the field of personal relationships that they cannot do. Prayer I pray that I may do my share in making a better world. I pray that I may be part of the cure for the ills of the world.

I have 15 days clean today. I've been feeling a lot of anxiety and insecurity lately so I'm trying to focus on surrendering to my higher power and not trying to do my own self will.

Hey people I need to go to a meeting, I miss them is that weird lol