24 Hours A Day May 6 AA Thought for the Day I’ve noticed that the ones who do the most for AA are not in the habit of boasting about it. The danger of building myself up too much is that, if I do, I’m in danger of having a fall. That pattern of thought goes with drinking. If one side of a boat gets too far up out of the water, it’s liable to tip over. Building myself up and drinking go together. One leads to the other. So if I’m going to stay sober, I’ve got to keep small. Have I got the right perspective on myself? Meditation for the Day The way sometimes seems long and weary. So many people today are weary. The weariness of others must often be shared by me. The weary and the heavy-laden, when they come to me, should be helped to find the rest that I have found. There is only one sure cure for world-weariness and that is turning to spiritual things. In order to help bring about the turning of the weary world to God, I must dare to suffer, dare to conquer selfishness in myself, and dare to be filled with spiritual peace in the face of all the weariness of the world. Prayer for the Day I pray that I may be a help to discouraged people. I pray that I may have the courage to help bring about what the weary world needs but does not know how to get.

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So, I've been clean since January because I did have 2 relapses but the last one damn near could have killed me! I went into a horrible seizure and fell out the shower and I landed on my mouth, hence losing 5 teeth which did major damage on my self esteem. I get ANGRY when the thought of my past usage comes into my mind because I don't want to use and I don't have any desire to use. Let me enlighten you about something that happened at my work a couple weeks ago and I was livid. I'm now a cna and I love my job! Well, I have a lot of hyper energy and I love to make my residents happy and most of them love me! Well, I work with someone who is in the NA program like myself, from the Lexington area okay. I had a nurse approach me and ask me what I was on and she doesn't know me from Adam and Eve. I told her I wasn't on anything and she said she knew that I used to do drugs, and I asked her how she knew that, but she refused to tell me how, but I have a pretty good guess how, the girl from Lexington. She didn't believe me at all, and I didn't appreciate her accusatory comments, because I KNOW THAT I AM CLEAN, so the only thing I could say was I'll take a fucking drug test right now. I ended up not having to because a nurse that had left to go home, which is also a recovering addict came back to work and talked to me and she could tell that I wasn't high. So now, I went to my neurologist on Tuesday, and they know now about my past drug use, they sent me to the lab to do a urine drug screen and I can't wait to get a copy of the results because I'm going to take it to my work and shove it in the nurse's face who had no business accusing me like she did and say now tell me that I'm high! I've been doing really good and I'm only going to get better from here. Thanks y'all!

So as everybody knows I haven’t been on here in a while. So let me start out by saying I apologize to all I have to be honest here I backslid down this slippery slope of addiction finding myself doing the same old things that I use to quit going to meetings quit calling a sponsor so I’m back in full swing of my recovery stepworks of London sorry I haven’t been in contact once I quit doing all the things I was taught to do there I went on my path of destruction. I’ve caught it before it goes any farther I don’t wanna live a life full of nothing but drugs or alcohol you’ll be hearing more from me again I had to open up and be honest I had to tel someone so why not the recording me family I’m gonna grab the bull by the horns again only hoping to succeed in my recovery God is good and great but where relapse starts is your thoughts decisions and actions that will lead you to a sober life or the addicted life I thought I had it smoked when you graduate a treatment facility remember this your going back to the real world where everything is it takes you also it’s never a graduation but a continuation I’ll speak more at a latter time good night to all prayers please.

Hey I graduate on the December 19th

Moving in to sober living tomorrow...All Thanks to a God of my Understanding... And its Amazing, and also got a Job at the same Real Time... Yes my God is Amazing...

Hey guys I graduate Stepworks crowne pointe tomorrow!!!!!

What's good stepworks family..hope all is well sitting listening to a little music this morning.get the day moving.i have 38 days sober with no mind-altering chemicals in my body. Blessed is he who follows the footsteps of the lord.that might not be everyone else's thing.but it is mine. I've been having my ups and downs the past couple days and I've been through a lot of trials and tribulations the past 11 months a whole hell of a lot. But I can honestly say just for today I want to remain clean.