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Merry Christmas fam.

   January 24 From isolation to connection Our disease isolated us...  Hostile, resentful, self-centered, and self-seeking, we cut ourselves off from the outside world. Basic Text, p. 4 = Addiction is an isolating disease, closing us off from society, family, and self.  We hid.  We lied.  We scorned the lives we saw others living, surely beyond our grasp.  Worst of all, we told ourselves there was nothing wrong with us, even though we knew we were desperately ill.  Our connection with the world, and with reality itself, was severed.  Our lives lost meaning, and we withdrew further and further from reality. The NA program is designed especially for people like us.  It helps reconnect us to the life we were meant to live, drawing us out of our isolation.  We stop lying to ourselves about our condition; we admit our powerlessness and the unmanageability of our lives.  We develop faith that our lives can improve, that recovery is possible, and that happiness is not permanently beyond our grasp.  We get honest; we stop hiding; we show up and tell the truth, no matter what.  And as we do, we establish the ties that connect our individual lives to the larger life around us. We addicts need not live lives of isolation.  The Twelve Steps can restore our connection to life and livingif we work them. = Just for today:  I am a part of the life around me.  I will practice my program to strengthen my connection to my world. Copyright 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

"Recovery is a process of discovery. We learn about ourselves, and we learn how to cope with the world around us. When we are sincere in our desire to allow our higher power to care for us, we begin to gain a sense of serenity. We notice a gradual change in our thinking. Our attitudes and ideas become more positive. Our world is no longer distorted by self-pity, denial, and resentment. We are beginning to replace those old attitudes with honesty, faith and responsibility; as a result, we begin to see our world in a better light. Our lives are guided by our emerging integrity. Even though we make mistakes, we become more willing to take responsibility for our actions. We learn that we don't have to be perfect to live a spiritual life. When we work step three with an open mind and heart, we find the results are far beyond our expectations. " It Works How and Why pg24

So as everybody knows I haven’t been on here in a while. So let me start out by saying I apologize to all I have to be honest here I backslid down this slippery slope of addiction finding myself doing the same old things that I use to quit going to meetings quit calling a sponsor so I’m back in full swing of my recovery stepworks of London sorry I haven’t been in contact once I quit doing all the things I was taught to do there I went on my path of destruction. I’ve caught it before it goes any farther I don’t wanna live a life full of nothing but drugs or alcohol you’ll be hearing more from me again I had to open up and be honest I had to tel someone so why not the recording me family I’m gonna grab the bull by the horns again only hoping to succeed in my recovery God is good and great but where relapse starts is your thoughts decisions and actions that will lead you to a sober life or the addicted life I thought I had it smoked when you graduate a treatment facility remember this your going back to the real world where everything is it takes you also it’s never a graduation but a continuation I’ll speak more at a latter time good night to all prayers please.

@jeremyneedsajob88 I miss all of you all at stepworks so freaking much!! Sending all my love today as you guys stay heavy on my mind! So blessed to have been lucky enough to meet everyone there. You guys made such a huge difference in my life!! And today I can recognize and be thankful for the peace and hope in my heart as well as all the other simple blessings in every moment of each day. Hugs to you and Robbie, Morgan, Becca, Hayley, Becca on second shift, Bridget, Shy, Melissa, Anna, OF COURSE Aaron and Sim and Everyone else there 💜💙💚💛🧡💖✨

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Today is my 90 days and I am just so grateful! Grateful to God, stepworks and the staff, the program I was introduced to while I was there! I am grateful that stepworks didn't just tell me to quit using, they helped me figure out why I was using in the first place! I am grateful that I can smile today in the sunshine and know that it is authentic! I am grateful to know this is a lifelong journey but I only have to take it one day at a time! Love all you beautiful people!

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Happy Easter! I’ll be graduating Stepworks Thursday and will be going into Sober living. I’m scared to death but ready to start this journey! Love y’all!

Here’s to another year of clean time!!! 4 years down!!! Loving life and my beautiful 5 month old daughter and I remember every memory I have made with my beautiful creation. What a blessing! Good morning so happy for another day. One day at a time!