24 Hours A Day May 6 AA Thought for the Day I’ve noticed that the ones who do the most for AA are not in the habit of boasting about it. The danger of building myself up too much is that, if I do, I’m in danger of having a fall. That pattern of thought goes with drinking. If one side of a boat gets too far up out of the water, it’s liable to tip over. Building myself up and drinking go together. One leads to the other. So if I’m going to stay sober, I’ve got to keep small. Have I got the right perspective on myself? Meditation for the Day The way sometimes seems long and weary. So many people today are weary. The weariness of others must often be shared by me. The weary and the heavy-laden, when they come to me, should be helped to find the rest that I have found. There is only one sure cure for world-weariness and that is turning to spiritual things. In order to help bring about the turning of the weary world to God, I must dare to suffer, dare to conquer selfishness in myself, and dare to be filled with spiritual peace in the face of all the weariness of the world. Prayer for the Day I pray that I may be a help to discouraged people. I pray that I may have the courage to help bring about what the weary world needs but does not know how to get.

"Recovery is a process of discovery. We learn about ourselves, and we learn how to cope with the world around us. When we are sincere in our desire to allow our higher power to care for us, we begin to gain a sense of serenity. We notice a gradual change in our thinking. Our attitudes and ideas become more positive. Our world is no longer distorted by self-pity, denial, and resentment. We are beginning to replace those old attitudes with honesty, faith and responsibility; as a result, we begin to see our world in a better light. Our lives are guided by our emerging integrity. Even though we make mistakes, we become more willing to take responsibility for our actions. We learn that we don't have to be perfect to live a spiritual life. When we work step three with an open mind and heart, we find the results are far beyond our expectations. " It Works How and Why pg24

So as everybody knows I haven’t been on here in a while. So let me start out by saying I apologize to all I have to be honest here I backslid down this slippery slope of addiction finding myself doing the same old things that I use to quit going to meetings quit calling a sponsor so I’m back in full swing of my recovery stepworks of London sorry I haven’t been in contact once I quit doing all the things I was taught to do there I went on my path of destruction. I’ve caught it before it goes any farther I don’t wanna live a life full of nothing but drugs or alcohol you’ll be hearing more from me again I had to open up and be honest I had to tel someone so why not the recording me family I’m gonna grab the bull by the horns again only hoping to succeed in my recovery God is good and great but where relapse starts is your thoughts decisions and actions that will lead you to a sober life or the addicted life I thought I had it smoked when you graduate a treatment facility remember this your going back to the real world where everything is it takes you also it’s never a graduation but a continuation I’ll speak more at a latter time good night to all prayers please.

Today is my 90 days and I am just so grateful! Grateful to God, stepworks and the staff, the program I was introduced to while I was there! I am grateful that stepworks didn't just tell me to quit using, they helped me figure out why I was using in the first place! I am grateful that I can smile today in the sunshine and know that it is authentic! I am grateful to know this is a lifelong journey but I only have to take it one day at a time! Love all you beautiful people!

Really REALLY struggling.. at the point that I’m depressed I can’t get high... IM STILL SOBER, but it’s a damn battle today that I’m too tired and exhausted to deal with. Been laying around all day miserable with myself and I hate it...