24 Hours A Day May 6 AA Thought for the Day I’ve noticed that the ones who do the most for AA are not in the habit of boasting about it. The danger of building myself up too much is that, if I do, I’m in danger of having a fall. That pattern of thought goes with drinking. If one side of a boat gets too far up out of the water, it’s liable to tip over. Building myself up and drinking go together. One leads to the other. So if I’m going to stay sober, I’ve got to keep small. Have I got the right perspective on myself? Meditation for the Day The way sometimes seems long and weary. So many people today are weary. The weariness of others must often be shared by me. The weary and the heavy-laden, when they come to me, should be helped to find the rest that I have found. There is only one sure cure for world-weariness and that is turning to spiritual things. In order to help bring about the turning of the weary world to God, I must dare to suffer, dare to conquer selfishness in myself, and dare to be filled with spiritual peace in the face of all the weariness of the world. Prayer for the Day I pray that I may be a help to discouraged people. I pray that I may have the courage to help bring about what the weary world needs but does not know how to get.

I once heard an old timer say, "It's great to have many years sober, but recovery is really about quality, not quantity." This really made me stop and think about what constitutes quality recovery. When we see someone who has the kind of recovery we want, what are the aspects of how that person lives life that makes their recovery attractive to us? I would love to hear what the rest of you think.

The highest activity a human being can attain is learning for understanding, because to understand is to be free. – Barauch Spinoza

This is so true

So, I've been clean since January because I did have 2 relapses but the last one damn near could have killed me! I went into a horrible seizure and fell out the shower and I landed on my mouth, hence losing 5 teeth which did major damage on my self esteem. I get ANGRY when the thought of my past usage comes into my mind because I don't want to use and I don't have any desire to use. Let me enlighten you about something that happened at my work a couple weeks ago and I was livid. I'm now a cna and I love my job! Well, I have a lot of hyper energy and I love to make my residents happy and most of them love me! Well, I work with someone who is in the NA program like myself, from the Lexington area okay. I had a nurse approach me and ask me what I was on and she doesn't know me from Adam and Eve. I told her I wasn't on anything and she said she knew that I used to do drugs, and I asked her how she knew that, but she refused to tell me how, but I have a pretty good guess how, the girl from Lexington. She didn't believe me at all, and I didn't appreciate her accusatory comments, because I KNOW THAT I AM CLEAN, so the only thing I could say was I'll take a fucking drug test right now. I ended up not having to because a nurse that had left to go home, which is also a recovering addict came back to work and talked to me and she could tell that I wasn't high. So now, I went to my neurologist on Tuesday, and they know now about my past drug use, they sent me to the lab to do a urine drug screen and I can't wait to get a copy of the results because I'm going to take it to my work and shove it in the nurse's face who had no business accusing me like she did and say now tell me that I'm high! I've been doing really good and I'm only going to get better from here. Thanks y'all!

"Recovery is a process of discovery. We learn about ourselves, and we learn how to cope with the world around us. When we are sincere in our desire to allow our higher power to care for us, we begin to gain a sense of serenity. We notice a gradual change in our thinking. Our attitudes and ideas become more positive. Our world is no longer distorted by self-pity, denial, and resentment. We are beginning to replace those old attitudes with honesty, faith and responsibility; as a result, we begin to see our world in a better light. Our lives are guided by our emerging integrity. Even though we make mistakes, we become more willing to take responsibility for our actions. We learn that we don't have to be perfect to live a spiritual life. When we work step three with an open mind and heart, we find the results are far beyond our expectations. " It Works How and Why pg24

So as everybody knows I haven’t been on here in a while. So let me start out by saying I apologize to all I have to be honest here I backslid down this slippery slope of addiction finding myself doing the same old things that I use to quit going to meetings quit calling a sponsor so I’m back in full swing of my recovery stepworks of London sorry I haven’t been in contact once I quit doing all the things I was taught to do there I went on my path of destruction. I’ve caught it before it goes any farther I don’t wanna live a life full of nothing but drugs or alcohol you’ll be hearing more from me again I had to open up and be honest I had to tel someone so why not the recording me family I’m gonna grab the bull by the horns again only hoping to succeed in my recovery God is good and great but where relapse starts is your thoughts decisions and actions that will lead you to a sober life or the addicted life I thought I had it smoked when you graduate a treatment facility remember this your going back to the real world where everything is it takes you also it’s never a graduation but a continuation I’ll speak more at a latter time good night to all prayers please.

Dope, dope, dope it makes me lose all hope! If only I could cope. This is horrible life makes me wanna croke. My arms are so sore from all these pokes. Look at me I'm a fucking joke. I am almost to the end of my rope. All i do is sit around and mope. I am sick of looking through this scope. Dope, dope, dope. Fight, fight, fight ya know I think I just might. The bottom is in sight. I am so sick of being so pale white. I want to be a delight not a fright. I know my future is so bright. I just have to get back up and do right. Rome wasn't built over night. I will stand up and fight. Recovery is in sight, I am on the next flight. Relax easy does it, Im calling it a night. I just wrote this and i need help.

It's Friiiiiidaay! Have a great one family! Clean 70 days today and life is so good, the obsession is lifted, Praise God and I have hope. What an amazing difference.

Hello Recovering(me) I’m completing treatment Thursday!

Moving in to sober living tomorrow...All Thanks to a God of my Understanding... And its Amazing, and also got a Job at the same Real Time... Yes my God is Amazing...