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The highest activity a human being can attain is learning for understanding, because to understand is to be free. – Barauch Spinoza

💙 this!

So, I've been clean since January because I did have 2 relapses but the last one damn near could have killed me! I went into a horrible seizure and fell out the shower and I landed on my mouth, hence losing 5 teeth which did major damage on my self esteem. I get ANGRY when the thought of my past usage comes into my mind because I don't want to use and I don't have any desire to use. Let me enlighten you about something that happened at my work a couple weeks ago and I was livid. I'm now a cna and I love my job! Well, I have a lot of hyper energy and I love to make my residents happy and most of them love me! Well, I work with someone who is in the NA program like myself, from the Lexington area okay. I had a nurse approach me and ask me what I was on and she doesn't know me from Adam and Eve. I told her I wasn't on anything and she said she knew that I used to do drugs, and I asked her how she knew that, but she refused to tell me how, but I have a pretty good guess how, the girl from Lexington. She didn't believe me at all, and I didn't appreciate her accusatory comments, because I KNOW THAT I AM CLEAN, so the only thing I could say was I'll take a fucking drug test right now. I ended up not having to because a nurse that had left to go home, which is also a recovering addict came back to work and talked to me and she could tell that I wasn't high. So now, I went to my neurologist on Tuesday, and they know now about my past drug use, they sent me to the lab to do a urine drug screen and I can't wait to get a copy of the results because I'm going to take it to my work and shove it in the nurse's face who had no business accusing me like she did and say now tell me that I'm high! I've been doing really good and I'm only going to get better from here. Thanks y'all!

"Recovery is a process of discovery. We learn about ourselves, and we learn how to cope with the world around us. When we are sincere in our desire to allow our higher power to care for us, we begin to gain a sense of serenity. We notice a gradual change in our thinking. Our attitudes and ideas become more positive. Our world is no longer distorted by self-pity, denial, and resentment. We are beginning to replace those old attitudes with honesty, faith and responsibility; as a result, we begin to see our world in a better light. Our lives are guided by our emerging integrity. Even though we make mistakes, we become more willing to take responsibility for our actions. We learn that we don't have to be perfect to live a spiritual life. When we work step three with an open mind and heart, we find the results are far beyond our expectations. " It Works How and Why pg24

One day you will tell your story of how you've overcome what you are going through now and it will become part of someone else's survival guide.

Dope, dope, dope it makes me lose all hope! If only I could cope. This is horrible life makes me wanna croke. My arms are so sore from all these pokes. Look at me I'm a fucking joke. I am almost to the end of my rope. All i do is sit around and mope. I am sick of looking through this scope. Dope, dope, dope. Fight, fight, fight ya know I think I just might. The bottom is in sight. I am so sick of being so pale white. I want to be a delight not a fright. I know my future is so bright. I just have to get back up and do right. Rome wasn't built over night. I will stand up and fight. Recovery is in sight, I am on the next flight. Relax easy does it, Im calling it a night. I just wrote this and i need help.

I’m about to leave treatment in two days and I would highly recommend Step Works of London for anyone struggling with addiction

I have 1 wk and 2 days sober. I am stressed out here lately. I want to drink. I cant handle this stress. I cant do anything right. I am a failure.

Nothing much hanging with my 3 beautiful kids 20191122_124822

Good morning everyone

graduating Stepworks of Nicholasville tomorrow , excited about my new journey!

Michelle addict. First time here just completed treatment and made it to sober living yesterday. Grateful.

@marlene marlene are you ok? i tried texting you where are you?