So i got my 4th and 5th done last night i was rold to pray then meditate for an hour then pray agian when i meditate i listen to the voice in my head and i write it down thats just what works for me i write i listen i like to think that its God talking to me how else could i come up with the things ive wrote when my whole life i never knew they were there now normally i would have some lame rhyme scheme because im pretty sure thats God dumbing it down for mebut this time it was different id never been this clear headed so i started writing and this is what i wrote i hope yall enjoy it:
The quite of the room the silence of my my mind that seemed all to busy at times ackward as i sit still in the dark clearheaded and all i think about is all the empty space between me and God its a strange feeling im not quite used to im not sure what to think as i lie here i suppose this is peace i dont think ive ever known it maybe i should introduce myself hi my name is tim u may not know me we just met i didnt even know myself til not to long ago this must be how God intends for us to feel i was to busy feeling with the wrong parts of my body my hands my feet my mind i had my mind in alot of things but in all those things the most important thing to have is heart if your hearts not in it then no blood is circulated to the rest of your body the blood carries oxygen to the brain your legs your feet and our hands we tend to forget the up most importance of the heart with out it we die just like most of my life has been chaotic because my heart wasnt in it so peice by peice i had fallen apart and at that very moment when we all fall apart the desease is there to pick up the peices and puts us back together now it seems as if its as decieveing and manipulative as we once was we are formed into what it wants us to be and we become entrapped into our own minds masters of our own self destruction and we spiral out of control and our minds were cluttered now when your house gets dirty u clean it it makes u feel good afterward when u see how nice things can be makes u proud clean house as i was told and i didnt fully understand it til now when i was young my mamaw used to say cleanliness is next to Godliness that to i never really got til this very moment right now the clutter in my mind is gone and because its gone the space in my head is clear nothing but space its peaceful soothing actually and that empty space is the only thing in between me and god theres nothing to get in the way its a straight shot how easy it could be for him to reach down and for me to reach up so he could hold my hand and walk me though this to be honest ive never been this close it truly is something remarkable