His heart is calloused and he wears it on his sleeve he comes home and she tells him to leave he says im sorry i really wanna quit this time but u dont know how much it is i wanna die the choice has left him and now he cant control his life and so he drifts even deeper as he tries to hide what hes doin cause he knows it isnt right hes so ashamed…[Read more]

I was comfortable in the dark because i didnt want to see all of my so called problems had always started with me so many delusions in head my skull was about to break my mind was always wondering and my very heart would ache id hate myself with passion as i slowly withered away poisioning my body hoping id end it all one day i thought i had no…[Read more]

@Rich look in your messages

Dear addiction,
I know we’ve rode together for so long /but u would always leave me hangin all alone /i thought u were there for me but u were not /i was a 14 year old kid when i discoverd pot/ i was a kid u messed that up for me/ but u werent the only one/ i wish i woulda just left that stuff alone /but i didnt /u would always give me a hug /and…[Read more]

So i got my 4th and 5th done last night i was rold to pray then meditate for an hour then pray agian when i meditate i listen to the voice in my head and i write it down thats just what works for me i write i listen i like to think that its God talking to me how else could i come up with the things ive wrote when my whole life i never knew they…[Read more]

The rhythm of things/ thie feeling of pain/the delusional delusions of feeling insane/ psychosis they say/its in your brain/but because u really believe it /it doesnt go away/crazy they say/why do u do those things/they dont understand that we cant help it /and we struggle with it each day/inconsiderate we hear /from those to us who are dear/but…[Read more]

I know what is like to feel all alone when u live in a house but its not a home to know noone who feels like me but i found out im not that unique i know what its like to wanna die when your mind is clouded and u try to take ur life because who wants me nobody why i know what its like to feel unloved and i know what is like to only feel with drugs…[Read more]

What is new with us anyway new found faith we didnt have before new found courage so we have the strength to endure new happiness and joy within new lives from which we made an amends new days even newer nights filled with choices and we can finally choose right new feelings that come and stay we embrace them now instead of push them away true…[Read more]