His heart is calloused and he wears it on his sleeve he comes home and she tells him to leave he says im sorry i really wanna quit this time but u dont know how much it is i wanna die the choice has left him and now he cant control his life and so he drifts even deeper as he tries to hide what hes doin cause he knows it isnt right hes so ashamed and he wishes that he could quit he always thinks how did his life get like this hes always struggled all hes ever known is pain and he just thought that he was to far gone to change he really loved her he didnt love the drugs more i know the way it looks but he never really had a choice its hard to choose when your an addict and people dont understand they talk down to u because they think ur a lesser man he never once wanted this to be his life he lost his family but not because he didnt wanna try he was consumed by the evil that he didnt see and it detroyed him his family was his everything he knows now that the mistakes were his very own the fault was his now his mind will forever rome he once had everything now its all gone he doesnt see his kids he barely talks to em on the fone but not because thats the way he wants it to be he might not understand it yet but one day he’ll see the good in all of this he takes it day to day its the hardest thing that hes ever done hes gettin better but the battles never gonna be done he wants so bad to be a father to his daughter and son to be the dad they deserve him to be hes no good to em high and this he sees but the time that hes lost is his misery its like the mountain that hes climbing goes straight up it just so happens that all the pain that hes had has made him tough so he keeps climbing hes never gonna give up he made bad decisions but thats in the past hes workin hard so he can get his life back so he can smile and show his kids the right path that no matter how bad your gettin beat that u can fight back he’ll show em courage and what it really means to live and u can beat the odds look your dad did keep ur head up keep moving no matter how bad it gets maybe one day he can be a better dad than this but he loves you and hes sorry for all the times hes missed